“Why do you have to be so mean sometimes?” – Abby
It was when my wife uttered this quote after our car stalled in traffic coming home from a recent appointment that it finally set in. I was being mean for the sake of being mean, and didn’t care who it was directed at. For all intents and purposes, I reached my breaking point that afternoon. Needless to say, she was crying because of how mad and frustrated I got; and afterwards I apologized for a very long time and told her how I felt. How I felt her getting cancer was my fault, and no one was to blame but me for her health situation; our car having issues; barely getting by.
I didn’t have any real outlet to destress, get my frustration and rage out. At the time, my Windows PC had a issue with a dead monitor (as explained in this recent post) and only recently, did I receive a replacement monitor that allowed it to work again. After returning from the football game mentioned here, I initially was going to spend a hour assembling the monitor, and plugging in the necessary functioning cables for it to work. One hour turned into two hours, and so on and so forth. Next thing I knew, it was 3:30am and I had reinstalled Windows and started to reload everything I used on a daily basis. Needless to say, I have my main outlet for expression back; and it literally couldn’t have come at a better time.