About 2 and 1/2 weeks ago, I ended up very overwhelmed. Not only from my own things, but from stress related to Abby’s cancer treatments. This doesn’t happen very often, but when it does my body and mind shift into what I call “Survival Mode”.
This doesn’t happen all the time, but when it does happen; I get very short-tempered with people; even more so than normal. The last time this happened was during the pandemic in 2020, and well; we all know how that turned out. Being neurodivergent, it is incredibly easy for me to get overwhelmed and burn out. I have tried in recent years to change the patterns that eventually lead to these conditions, and for the most part they work … until they don’t.
I don’t wish being a caregiver to a cancer patient on anyone. It is incredibly demanding, and will change you forever. Finding my own way in order to recover from the sheer sense of things has been very difficult, but not without it’s own reward.
I ended up pulling a blog post down from a couple weeks ago, right before everything started. In that post, I was stating that I was closing the blog for three reasons; and was letting the site go after January 6th. I am pleased to report that this will no longer be the case.
Somewhere in the world, there is someone going through the exact same situation I’m currently going through. I hope that person finds my site.